What hurts the most..

In another 3 min time it would be our 2yrs annivesary.. I have nt work anymore finished work it was tiring..had a great fight with him jus nw at first was tired to thk of where to go tmr he was nt sincere or or serious we end up quarreling aft tat somethg more happen, i got an private msg telling me the conversation tat my bf n his ex was talking abt i really don believe i called him aft tat we gt a great fight everythg seems to be my fault..the way he talk to her was so sweet n he ask her if she had throw the care bear he gave her..haix..y does he rmb all this y does he still have to talk to her even if he had saw her i don even talk to my ex anymore y does he have to n whn i found out he don even thg is a big problem..y does he nt feel guilty at all..im really angry n jealous of seeing him talking to her..it hurts bt i dw because of this to spoil our anni tmr i hope his mood will become better..i hope we will have a great day tmr..i hope he would nt meet her or talk to her or even talk to any other girl anymore pls..i hate the feeling of being jealous n cry all the time it fking hurts..i hope tmr could be a refresh new start of our relationship..i hope he will be sweet and caring towards me like how he used to can..haix..i donwan any of this to happen again..i really do love him..happy 2yr anniversary baby ho..i love you..