250713

its has been a month i last updated. well i was wondering if i should just close this blog..

have been dating a new guy for a month already yap he is my new bf im really happy being tgt with him n i smile all the time! its like as if i knew him for sucha long time already!! but noo!!

well was feeling moody again as i wont be able to see him for a few days n next month he will be going to taiwan i have to wait even longer..haix..

feelings confused n mixed while he is having fun im working n missing him..oh well!

shall end here now goodabye!

finally i gave up..

its like a finally i got the courage to giv up on my 3yrs relationship..051010 is not gone bt always be in my heart i hope we could be close friends forever hahahaha!!! i hope i wont regret n i hope i have made the right choice..

+signed off+

im 18 already!!!

hi ppl! yess another month has past n i jus turn 18 jus a few days ago! yea!!! so on my bday i took off for 2days but than my boy friend has no time for me at all i was so upset;( bt aft my bday we did meet up for a short while cos i was making cake for him bt than he said it was not nice:( haix..shld not have waste my time making it..well.. i thk i can say everythg went well except yst when he says he wants to go to club! well..i really donlike my bf going to clubbing! i hate it! everytime somethg will happen! is not tat i don trust him is tat i really hate it especially whn im not ard! which girls like it? i really cant tolerate it n luckily he did nt go cos it close already whn he went there! if not we could have jus broken up haix.. i hope he wont thk of going to clubbing again n hope tat his friend would nt ask him to go or bring him there!! well i just hope i could meet my bf more often n hope that he will love me more and care for me n delete all the other girl contacts n stop contacting other girls n be more faithfull to me can? well..shall end here now! goodbye!! ohya ohya i dyed my hair red haha! ok lame cya next mth!

+signed off+

2yrs8mth ..

we have jus past our 2yr8mth anni yst..bt we did nt meet at all.. this few weeks u have been concerning abt ur friend relationship n u cared alot for the girl..

u did nt knw that u actually abandon my feelings...n u felt that u still got care..n we quarreled n u wanted to leave me..i knw i promised u i wont borther u again..

bt i got really jealous..n i really hate it whn u kept meeting her whnever she felt sad n u jus accompany her thru out the night till morning thn go home..thn dw wanna go sch..

u blame me for telling her ex..bt who else can understand me? i really hope she could start being mature n settle her own feelings n stop bothering u le..

yst is our anni bt u r out with ur friend n her to watch the sunrise n only go home awhile this morning

today u say u going to malaysia n u r going to stay over nite in the hotel tgt..i really hope u all wont stay overnite..idw..3guys 1 girl in a hotel rm..i asked u to travel with me wat did u say? you said "cant wan la" ....u instantly break my heart..

i saw her saying that theres someone lending her jacket..i hope is nt u lending her the jacket i bought for u..

i hope u will cm bk early..i will wait for u even whn im sick..i will wait..pls be safe n cm bk soon.. n i hope u wont be close to her pls..

hoping that you would keep ur promise..

i hope today would really be the last n would not go out till so late with them again..

n i hope then u will keep promise ur promise n not make any contact with any other girls n will behave ur self...

i really cant tAke it when u keep on going out n coming home only the next day..u nvr care how i feel..n the most thg that i cant tolerate is u making contacts with other girls..y must u do that?

is it really hard for u to stop for me me? have i not done enough to deserve that?

u nd my understanding n all i need is for u to understand me tooo can? i donwan u to only care for me when im sick i wan u to care for my feelings too..

i really hope that you wont not make me disapointing n hurt me again can..i hope u would keep ur promise pls..ty..

+signed off+

May 2013

hav nt been blogging much bt i still blog but wat for? he nvr even read my blog anymore he nvr knew hw i will feel n he does nt even care hw i feel..

so i sarted working as admin assist n i feel really stress keep giv boss say i do wrong thg wow wow wow bt who knows?

nobody understand me im always so angry n stress n really bad mood bt my parents nvr understand finally weekends is here bt they nvr let me go out always expecting me to be home doin hse work no way man i nd to relieve my stress u all don understand nvm still keep wan nag n scold me for going out? wan to threaten to wack me? seriously jus kill me don make me suffer!

bf nvr understand me bt always expecting me to understand him even i jus ask him to go home early he says n accuse me for controlling him n i always feel in nt good enough for him n he only knws hw to threaten to break with me. i tot bf r suppose to knw n understanding their gf? bt y is my relationship another way round? i nd more love frm him..i really need him..bt whn i cry..he jus find me annoying..

seriously idk wat to do all my loves ones keep threatening me. Life is meaningless to me now who can come understand me? NO ONE!

im a useless girlfriend of all..

time to post up a little! i have been working at an office job as an admin assist has been quite turf n tired..

well my relationship with my bf? been 2yr 6mth tgt le..bt yst sux..notice my boy went to talk to other girl again..really heart broke nvr finish my job at work really no mood..like i said thats my only wish is for him to start talking with other girl behind my back seriously..is he tat despo for to chat with other girl? chat at 4am nt asleep nxt day dw go sch? haix..im sick n tired of the same thg happen..fear god i prayed n hope every single day i really pray n hope that my bf would jus stop chatting with other girl n stop making me so sad can..haix..hope everytjg goes well n hope he would keep his promise..shall end here nw..